Thursday, October 27, 2011

Annabelle's 3rd Birthday

I have been known to go overboard on my children's birthday parties. I love planning any party and I especially love celebrating my babies. I love anything kid themed and it really does bring me joy for them to feel celebrated in a big way.

Annabelle's party was no exception to my inability to find moderation. It was really over the top. It had much to do with my baby girl becoming a little girl, the fact that she is a girl and girls parties are SOO fun, and the fact that I was stressed about the possible move to Seattle so I used the party as an escape. Regardless of all the reasons, I had so much fun searching on line for ideas, getting ready and eventually showing it all off to her.

The party was a Flower Fairy Party. We started a week before the party setting up a Fairy Garden in our backyard with hopes that some Fairies might find it and come to her party. All the kids got involved in designing it and Tyler even made a sign out of tree bark and nailed it to the tree. All his idea!

The colors and patterns for the party were based off Annabelle's dress that I found last spring at a consignment sale. I used just 2 yards of fabric for table runners, center pieces, banners and napkins.

Tissue paper flowers hung from the trees and around the banner I made from scrapbook paper. I also made Fairy wands by wrapping kaboob skewers with floral tape and adding a tissue paper flower to then end with floral wire along with ribbons and a jingle bell. The shook their wands around the yard while we went on a "Fairy Hunt"



We served brunch: 3 different kinds of mini quiches, baked oatmeal muffins, yogurt parfaits with raspberry purree, fresh veggies and fruit.

We had pink lemonade for the kids and Momosas for the grown-ups. Brian broke out the beer but drank it with pink straws to keep with the theme.

The little girls table sat under the tree canopy of tissue paper flowers, lights and tulle. The chairs were covered with pillow cases and ribbon.

At each spot were small watering cans used as place holders. Each can was filled with hummus and a veggie bouquet. The napkin rings were tissue paper flowers on hair rubber bands that the girls used as bracelets.





Flowered hair garlands waited for each of the girls on the backs of their chairs.



The highlight of the party was when the "Real" Fairy showed up to read a story and paint faces. This was an 8th grade friend of ours who did a fantastic job. Annabelle still thinks a real fairy came to her party.



The other favorites were getting nails painted, going on a fairy wing hunt, potting a flower in their own small pot, and ordering cupcakes and other pretend food from Annabelle's Sweet Shop.

Obviously, Annabelle had a great time, as did we all.

This will be a tough party to top...not that I need to try!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Do you want to move to Seattle?

Frequently, when we have told friends of our potential move to Seattle, they ask if we want to go. It has the appearance of a simple question but every time I am asked, I freeze. I don't know how to answer.

Ask me, "Do you feel like this is the right thing for your family?" "Do you feel like you'll be able to find peace there?" "Do you think this is the right job for Brian?" "Do you think this is an opportunity you can't pass up?"

Easy questions. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

"So do you WANT to move there?" I guess my honest response would be no. No, I don't want to leave the many incredible, deep friendships I have here. No, I don't want to leave living with my cousins and sharing everyday life with them. No, I don't want Tyler to miss having his cousin Casey as part of his daily life. No, I don't want to move to a state that touches Canada and is difficult for friends and family to reach. No, I don't want to leave our incredible school district and community. No, I don't want to leave my house with its big backyard, beautiful master bedroom, quiet tree house porch, great neighbors, and all things walkable. No, I don't want to leave my church where I have been mentored, challenged, changed, supported and loved... where my kids have all been baptized by name, known and loved. No, I don't like change and I never dreamed we would change our life in this way. No, I don't want to leave what is safe and comfortable.

I am afraid. I am afraid of change. I am afraid God won't be good. I am afraid of being lonely. I am afraid of how this will affect Tyler. I am afraid of being forgotten.

Yet, I am ready to go.

This is right. This is good. And, whether I believe it fully or not, GOD IS GOOD. He will not abandon me or my family. He is not taking all this away to be cruel. I am taking each step forward based on what I know to be true of God, even though my heart does not FEEL safe.

"All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

This is my biggest prayer. That I would more fully believe that I can trust God to take care of me. And, that regardless of if I want to move, I would move with a heart that is at peace.


Friday, September 23, 2011

Is Seattle the place for a new season?

A brief timeline:

In the spring Microsoft, one of Brian's current clients, begins to talk to him about the possibility of him coming to work full time for them (instead of as a contract energy consultant).
By the way, if you want to know more about what Brian does, you'll have to talk to
him. I can give a vague description and I am always surprised when Brian says I
described it mostly correctly.

In the spring we laugh. We would never leave. We would never want to work at Corporate America.

In the summer Brian is more intrigued. Could he do this job from St. Louis? He finds out more about the job, it seems like it could be an incredible fit. His current jobs fails him more and more. Still we say...How could we ever move.

In August, Brian receives the job description. He is giddy. I have never seen him come alive like he does when he talks about this job. He is like an artist who has been working with minimal supplies whose been offered the possibility of getting to create on a huge canvas with unlimited art supplies. If he could have written the job himself, he couldn't have written it better.

Wife, who has been amazingly, surprisingly supportive begins to panic. In theory, I say I will move anywhere in the world for my talented artist. Reality feels much different. All my daily events and interactions begin to be viewed with the lens of loss. I cry everyday. Wife, mother, friend...the little girl who cried when our carpets would change in my house growing up. "I love you linoleum, I'll miss you so much" as I lay on the floor stroking the white faux brick with gray trim. Change does not feel safe.

Last week Brian flies to Seattle on Monday for six interviews. They go incredibly well. We fly to Seattle together on Tuesday evening. He has meetings Wednesday and Thursday. I drive around enjoying quiet time in the car with tea and music. Thankful for the GPS on my phone.

It is cold, cloudy and drizzly all week. I get a good taste of a normal Seattle day. I meet very friendly people. I speak with a woman walking in a neighborhood (just roll down my window and ask her about the area). The man behind the counter of a local coffee shop picks out my accent and speaks to me for 10 minutes about how the area of Kirkland is the best. A mom with a 3 year old tells me about preschools then offers her email and phone number so I can contact her with questions. I meet a realtor who specializes in the Kirkland area and he offers to email me rentals when they come up. I drive till I am carsick.

Wednesday night I meet Brian at dinner with his main contact at Microsoft, TJ. She has been his biggest cheerleader and support along the way. He works with her more than anyone. We meet, she gives me the biggest, most sincere hug. We are joined by two men who represent wind turbine manufacturers. They want Microsoft's business. I am a little of a fifth wheel but they don't make me feel like it. Though I do feel like I've entered a foreign world. "Have you been to Florence lately, Kim?" I want to say: "I'm sorry, did you ask if I've mopped my floors lately?" I feel Midwest. I feel different. But the conversation moves to things of truth and importance. These corporate individuals still long for integrity. They long to leave their children with things that matter. I am surprised by the depth of the conversation and I have a heart for this corporate world.

The next day I leave the suburban "Eastside," cross Lake Washington to the main part of Seattle. This part of Seattle intimidates me. The streets don't make sense. I get lost multiple times. I am intimidated by the culture there. People appear to either be "grunge" or "alternative." I wonder if I could fit in being "mainstream."

I have lunch with my childhood best friend, Molly. We haven't seen each other in 13 years, though we were inseparable for the first 10. We have a wonderful lunch. We even meet up again for dinner so she can meet Brian. She chooses a vegan restaurant. It is divine. There are multiple gluten and dairy free menu options. I have the most delicious gluten free dairy free brownie with peanut butter ice cream. Could this be God's goodness to me and my families diet restrictions?

We close the restaurant down. I am so thankful to reconnect with her. I imagine many more times together.

Friday, Brian and I get to explore together. We wonder upon this quaint French cafe in Queen Anne. We drive around Wallingford, the area of Seattle where most young families live. We head back over to the Eastside. I realize I feel more comfortable on this side. It is suburban but feels more familiar.

That night, we are invited to dinner with Brian's potential new boss at a fancy steak restaurant at the top of a hotel overlooking all of Seattle. Real life Pretty Woman. I feel like I am on an interview. My first in 10 years. We have a great time. Again, I am surprised by the depth of the conversation. Christian has an amazing heart and he really cares about Brian as a person not just for what he can offer Microsoft. He asks honest questions about me and our kids. He really cares. After dinner, I thank him, especially for wanting to meet me and valuing that Brian has a life outside of work. He agrees that life is more important than work. Wow. Different.

"Great job, eye candy!" Brian complements me after dinner. I'll toot my own horn. I think I did well. Christian emails Brian later that night to thank me for coming to dinner, to say how much he enjoyed meeting me and that he can tell I am a big part of Brian's success. He knows the way to my heart.

After dinner, we meet some acquaintances for wine. A long time friend of my mom has a daughter my age with a life story so familiar to mine. She and her family of 5 have just moved to Seattle 3 weeks ago. Funny. We have a great time. Her husband teaches Philosophy at Seattle University. Did you know Brian has a major in Philosophy? They have had a wonderful time so far in Seattle. Their 2 boys and 1 girl (almost the same ages as our kids) have adjusted well.

The next morning we meet another acquaintance for breakfast. Mike Sabracco, his wife and 2 kids. He has been in Seattle 7 years at Grace Seattle Church. Another fantastic time. We enjoy their family and they fill us in on Seattle and what is like for Christians to live in a culture so hostile to things of the gospel.

We spent the rest of the day driving in neighborhoods. We decided we want a new house, with a big yard, sidewalks, cul-de-sac, view of mountains/lakes, walkable to a school and stores/coffee shops. Asking for too much? We go to bed early. Exhausted. This is the first night we've stayed in the same hotel as the night before. We get up early and head home.

We hope to hear something from Microsoft by the end of next week. For now we wait.

I realize those are just the facts. I'll write more later about how we are processing.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

A New Blog for a New Season

I started my last blog 2 years ago. It feels like much longer than that. I enjoy the therapeutic act of journaling. I am a verbal processor and blogging allows you to feel like you have a captive listener, but I don't ever seem to have the time to really keep up on it. Recently, I have been missing it and desiring to return.

When I went to make a post on the Reluctant Hippie Family blog, I felt as if I was reading the words of someone else. While I am thankful for that season in my life and feel that God refined me in amazing ways, it is a different season now. That was a season of great wrestling. Fighting to change our lot. Fear about the uncontrollable. Disappointment with unmet expectations. It was a season of letting go. Learning to open my hands. Walking in faith. Believing in good.

The name Reluctant Hippie Family does not describe us any more. I am no longer reluctant about the boundaries given to us. I am learning to accept our lot. This doesn't mean it is not still hard to open my hands and let go of fear and the desire to control but it is a a much easier battle.

So, here begins the journey of the New Hippie Family.